Never Had A Boyfriend

Yes, I am twenty five years old, and I've never had a boyfriend. You always think that school and university would be the time to be in a relationship, go over all those relationship milestones and be content if you are single. However, when you're twenty five years old and have never even been in a relationship it does make you question everything. Now I have been with three guys in my life with the third one being the one I'm currently seeing at the moment but as yet, none of them has ever crossed the relationship line where it's all official. I didn't have my first kiss until I was twenty one and on that same day, I popped my cherry. Now perhaps that was my fault because maybe things moved very quickly. Yet that first guy nearly broke me because what I thought would turn into a relationship ended with me finding out I was the other woman, and he had a girlfriend of over four years. I wasn't even the other woman because his words to me were I was just a bit of fun. Honestly, that was painful. Especially when you're honest about never having a boyfriend and they still do that to you. Yeah, it sucks but the person I feel sorry for is his girlfriend who probably has no idea I exist. I do feel bad, but I also had no idea she existed until one day I randomly decided to do some Facebook stalking. It's not always a bad thing. 

You might be thinking well that I must have learned something from the first that the second might have gone better. Nope. Well, I did learn a few things like not being too needy or constantly messaging every day. However, I think maybe it was too laid back that it just dissolved. Of course, he said he didn't want it to be serious so that was the obvious sign that it was never going to be anything more. Yet I enjoyed his company and everything plus he bought me food which was a bonus. The thing that ended it for me was him showing off another female on his Snapchat. Almost like he didn't care if I saw. So yeah, that hurt. 

It does suck that nobody has ever wanted to be official with me. Maybe it's my fault for choosing the wrong guys. Yet, it does put into question everything that has happened in my life. Why has no guy ever looked at me and thought I want her? Maybe they have and I just haven't noticed. I guess my biggest worry is being rejected so maybe that's why I haven't put myself out there. I tried online dating but a case in point with the previous two guys, that didn't work. I do remain hopeful as I do have a man in my life who I really like. Yet I don't want to jinx it. 

To be honest, I don't know why I am twenty five and never had a boyfriend. Yet I always remain hopeful that maybe one day it will happen. 

Who knows?

So, if you're in your twenties and have never been in a relationship then don't worry. I'm the proof right here that you are not alone. It will happen. Hopefully. Just keep going and maybe one day you will find the love of your life that will treat you the way you deserved to be treated. 

Anyway, that's all I have to say for now. Thank you for reading my blog and I'll be back again soon with another post. 

See you then. 

Megan x 

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